First and for most, just wanted to apologize PvP community of what I done last week. I Intentionally got myself in trouble, won't happen again. I won't say what I did or done. The game hasn't really been fun for me honestly even more so with my depression and abandon issues towards AD in a sense. I finally realized why this is so. Mainly towards not seeing my Bio Birth Family in 12 yrs. Not allowed to, In which Holiday(s) are very terrible and very hard for me to go through. Which does also makes my depression very worse.
With that being said, It's why I still feel outcast and abandon towards AD. For some reason me thinking I'm an outcast and abandon, makes me think stuff in my head and reminds me of my past towards my Bio family and Foster Care. I am working towards this, it's not very easy. But hopefully with the Holiday(S) ending soon within 3 weeks or so. I'll be much better. I Notice now that AD are all not bad.
I just have to keep doing positive thinking. Just really not easy. However I did got little upset towards this one AD max CP tank, teabaging his fellow team mates yesterday. Whilst not reviving, it's not right and unfair, especially reminds me about what happened to me last time. Least This Tank didn't fake Revive and Teabag. But I'm alright, it's just he really needs training
With that being said, I also left my Guild. But my Guild hasn't been disband unless they so choose. One of my Friends got Guild leader, just unsure which one. I just feel, due to what I did. I shouldn't become one at this time. But I will not give up, just still not right time for me to Become and lead an awesome PvP/ Multi Alliance guild. So I'm in only 1 Guild as of now. I think I'll keep it that way. I also have learned there is an option for having No Zone Chat.
Just wish I knew sooner, would save me a lot of trouble. Hence why I am asking. Is Zone Chat really important for PvP? I'm starting feel better and having more fun. Except I lost 5 keeps due to me not warning. Due to me not using zone chat anymore. Yes I know it's my fault and my fault alone. But without Zone chat I'm learning to move on. Starting have more fun in PvP. It's just I'm not being fair for me not warning.
I will also say, I will not ask AD permission for me go back when I do. (I do believe I should 1 time warn on there side though. Just heads up.) I may or may not go back in next campaign reset to AD. It just depends if I'm ready or not. I was originally planning on going back. Just to help them only with balance but not for my alliance. Yes I was AD way longer, hence I still call AD my alliance, rather if others disagree with me.
From same side or not, I am me and me alone. I think other reds I'm currently serving Probably know this to. I must say, I'm very happy to see Cyrodiil way full again on all 3 sides. It's about time, good chance I'll probably stay EP. I might not. Depends on how AD is doing. I'm guessing they will be fine. So I appologise and meant no offense. But I am starting having really fun now, least when I have some time from Witch in Training (My new hobby that adopted me) So is PvP Zone Chat really important for me to use?
Even after I know 5 keeps where being attacked and lost. Due to me knowing and by myself? If Zone Chat is important then I'll just have to learn to accept what others think about me and do my best to ignore. But if Zone Chat is really not important for PvP zone chat to warn. I would like to keep Zone Chat off. Due to my reasons, as well as having more fun. So I don't mean to offend anyone and meant no offense. thanks.
I hope I am within the rules.
Official PSN message. 4-18-18 (Copy/Paste) Hey Justin. It is ok. You can be so much more without the *(left name out). For me you are always a legend. Look for a job you want. You always write like a bard or poet so maybe you should write a book"
It Was A Glorious 2+ years in Scourge PS4 EU, especially during both the 1st and 2nd Scourge. As well as my time in Haderus PS4 EU. What will my journey bring, during my time in Shor, We shall wait; for my journey has only begun.