Sure I'm not loyal, I keep trying tell Reds in Shor PS4 EU. I warned many times in advance, I'll most likely switch. One day early and or after campaign reset (today ends) I uphold my promise. I went blue 1 day early. Mainly due to my friendship is waning on one blue. Now even more so, after I caused "* cupid" (*different word) commotion. I was in this group, one was my friends. I was blue earlier and literally was byself. At same time I won't be blue for long, unsure when I leave. Probably way sooner than planned. But I just also want visit and encourage blues to not give up. I wanted to teach em, blues the ways that I've learned best. Meaning I used to fight for balance (2 1/2 yrs in 1st and 2nd Scourge) but not anymore. Just visiting only and try fix friend situation. As well as trying to encourage and not lose hope.

My friend he says he won't unbefriend me something tells me he will in future. Not sure when, but could've be today for that matter. He and I we go far back since middle of 2nd Scourge. I've lost so many friends in ESO to many to count. I just not want loose anymore. It's always my fault, I do blame myself. But like I've said, I also want help and do my best to teach blues how to not give up. Teach em, on how to be good team. Least that was my hope and dream. When I'm temporarily stay on blue in Shor. I will go back red eventually and or sooner than planned. Just depends how much commotion I've made. Meaning, I've upset these blues in my friend group. I unsure what I did wrong. I was only trying start a conversation after I disagree with blue comment about red. I not like it, but I kept my cool.

Yet when I wrote after the blue comment. I told em, wanted share my story on what happened on red. I have this fan, she keep saying she loves me. But yet somehow this caused a huge big commotion? Sure it's my fault. I didn't realize everyone was so die hard loyal for there alliance. Yet if they where die hard loyal for there alliance in group (my friend included) why did they accepted me? Yet they got mad, like really (not kicked me out group, I left and watch Netflix) I keep being told to go back reds. Because they assume I want go back reds. Many times I said no I want stay. But things kinda went south east. I keep saying I want leave on my own terms. I keep saying I don't want go back red right now. Because I feel I'll loose him in general. Plus all the previous message he leaves calling me noob when us zero reds destroy everything. It's just friend ship is not going well. I know signs of it. Since my bio childhood, all the warnings... It's why and how I know my friendship is very unhealthy.

I feel as well I'll loose him eventually. At same time I see now why I should of stayed one alliance only. Yet how can I be one alliance if nothing to do that's already been taken? Yet same time that one ad in my other previous post in thread. I agree with that yellow. "my beloved reds" reds are beloved to me. The people over there treat me with great respect and I'm so happy to be red in Shor. I'm proud to be red. Not loyal though, but still I'm red. Yet if fighting for balance like I used to do, caused me a lot of trouble. (I'm not fighting for balance on blue, just want teach them and to help aid. Not give up.

I know they can win some, with or without me) At same time highly good chance I'll loose a friend. Especially now after incident. Now he thinks I was spying. I keep trying tell him (blue) reds are in high alert, since I rode all way from DC gate to kc with my slow mount. I took all of kc outer wall down. But didn't get any ap from me killed, save for the wall. I then rode to drakelow, flared drakelow wall, unfortunately ran out of siege so killed my self red resource. But does it look like I'm spying? So should I be loyal. If so how do I have fun? Or continue to teach DC how to do things and not give up. Then I'll switch back EP, or leave to EP sooner due to me loosing blue friend (good chance)