Hi all not causing trouble especially within community, I want to say how it is and best way to do so. This is the only best way to do it. So please I meant no offense and don't take it wrong way. I just want to speak my mind. (I don't know how to make resignation letter)
I just want to say thank you EP, for taking me in for 4 months of 2nd Scourge PS4 EU left and Haderus . As well as 1st 2nd and 3RD Vivec. (All of and On AD and EP, save for 2 days on AD and went back EP in Vivec 3rd Day 3rd Campaign) For the remaining, 3rd Vivec Campaign to 4th, 5th, 6th and 7th Vivec Campaign. I have remained EP and stayed there.
Plus my 1 week of being EP when 2nd Scourge started and then switch back to AD (*Please note: I was DC originally on PS4 EU. But AD was originally my alliance . I consider it my alliance still. Due to me originally AD PC 2014 and AD from 1 time transfer in 2015 ESO to PS4 NA. Before making DC, due to my Destiny Friends. Hence, Original Princess Justine served PS4 EU. Until 1st Scourge ended.)
Even though I was Alliance hoping to both AD and EP (Due to me for 1+ yrs. feeling an outcast and unwanted, plus all the stuff from AD side that was said to me via zone, basically including Fake revives while being teabag wile other watched. I won't go there, the past is the past.) Even though, I said I didn't really got to Know you EP. But I was wrong, I do consider you EP my 2nd alliance honestly. i was meant to see all 3 Alliances in PvP. PvP is all I do and interested in no offense. (I also enjoyed my time on DC to, don't want you DC feel left out)
But in honestly, I have gotten to know you EP for about 10 Months on me EP. But don't forget Most of it was me off and on EP. I guess it's why the new Princess Justine (AD 2nd Scourge PS4 EU) fell in love towards 2 alliances. In a way she could write a story, but probaly won't. Its Probaly also why Siry Justy The Confused. (AD 2nd Scourge Sorc) became so very confused as to why the New Princess Justine, fell in love with 2 factions and called both alliances home. It's probaly why also, My Enemy Is Myself (2nd Scourge AD, Vicec AD Main Healer and Character) was Struggling within herself. To Understand what her true feelings lie within.
What I'm trying to say is. I still learning about you EP, I still got so much to learn. But I have to hold, this is not a good bye. That is if I can actually fix and finaly be accepted by AD. Then good chance it be good bye, least in PvP sense. I won't frget on how majority didn't trust me and not accepted me for while. But after many months, I been accepted in which I'm outmost so very grateful. I was also shocked and surprised. When I suddenly got invite from the very person whom I made mad originally in Haderus as well as the whole EP guild. For taking away his EMP in Haderus. But times do change in which I got invite for group 3 days ago on EP. I was outmost grateful, I did thank him via PSN though.
But I'm planning to go back AD in next campaign reset. I will no longer ask AD for permission (gotten myself in trouble) I have been thinking this througly. In honestly all I have been doing was running away. Due to me caring as to what AD and others think about me. Only because I have let them and I cared deeply of how they feel towards me. because I have let them and which I don't know how to stick up for myself. But this time I will do what I want to do. I will do what I have to do. i will ignore negative AD (Not all are negative) if I'm forced to use Zone chat that's alright. But if others start be Negative I will shut the chat off immediately. (I just wish I knew we had this option long ago. But I'm also grateful i could spend time with all 3 alliances. In which I call EP my 2nd alliance)
Due to me going back AD. I was originally going to warn AD in Zone Chat. I thought 1 warning would be fair. But more I think about it, I don't think it's the best option. Yet I thought it was fair to give AD a warning. A Headsup so to speak, I will go back AD. I don't want to cause trouble on AD side, especially before I go back in 16 days? (Unsure how long left honestly)
So this is my only option left, to both AD and EP. To say goodbye to EP (Probably not forever or unless, I finally get accepted fully by AD) and a warning towards AD. (To let them know that nothing will stop me, frome me going back to AD. To also tell em I really absolutely want to help AD. Even after all the things of how I was mistreated in a sense. But this time I won't give up)
To the AD, Even yes I do feel EP is my 2nd alliance no offense. Nothing can change that. But in a way does makes sense and always have honestly. I am AD, I have always been. I always believe this and still do. I have always called AD my 1st alliance and my True Home. I just wished others could see how deeply I felt towards AD. The love, The struggle, The Pain and The Hurt. AD is my home and will always be my home. Nothing will change that even when AD was and still my Original Alliance and AD longer than all the 3 alliances combined.
Other EP knows where my heart truly lies as well as I'm still considered AD there. I'm starting to notice, when I don't freeze and lag. I notice it's very hard to attack you AD. I'm not giving my all on EP side. I still love you AD, especially whilst on EP side. Even with all the hardships I endured. I still love you AD. I told another EP that I'm not giving my all on EP, he agreed. (Good chance I won't give it my all on AD side to)
I have read another thread post of this new person. S/He that want's help no zergs and hurting alliance. This made me want to help AD even more. Even though, AD alliance has becoming Stronger in Vivec PS4 EU. AD still is in 3rd place and probably stil will. I don't even know if AD was in 2nd or 3rd in last campaign. I asked but got no answer. I know others think it depends on how many players. But I have always go with the score. I will still go by the Score. This time even though I have enjoyed my stay on EP. It's time or me to goback to my Home, my Alliance. it's time for no more hiding, It's time to do what I want and not what other's want me to do.
Even though yes I do call AD my home and my Original alliance. (Due to me being AD longer, than all 3 Alliances Combined) I want to make 1 thing clear. no offense. Yes AD is my alliance (EP 2nd) I will outmost not fight for my alliance. (Due to my AD history, no offense) I will only fight for balance via the score honestly. Good chance i will go back EP, when AD start doing good with Score for while. Good chance I stay AD if I finaly got accepted by Majority of AD. My road will be hard, my Journey be rough. But I believe in time, everything will be alright.
But hey, If I still not accepted by AD, for me not sure how long I be there helping via the score. Then it's alright I accept and wasn't meant to be. Then I move back to EP, when AD start doing well. (I won't rage in forum, I'm done with that. But was hurt all the same) But it's time for what I want to do. Not what others want me to do. I will be ready to go back AD in next campaign reset. Evn more so of me learning about having. The option, to turn off Zone Chat. There was a reason as to why I asked. If zone chat was very important for PvP. I guess it's very important. But I will start using Zone Chat, even on AD. But if there any hint of negativity on AD side. I got 2 options.
1. I shutting off Zone Chat on AD side, but only negatively. 2. Receiving fake revives and teabag: I will outmost put on my YouTube channel. To embarrass no offense. But mind you. I am better person than you. I will still revive you. No matter how you treated me. I'm a kind person. I will still revive everyone (Given the fact I not lag trying to do so and or freeze or get destroyed)
But it's time for me sticking up for myself and stop caring what othere people think about me. especially more towards negative people. The time is nigh and time for me to stand up what I believe in. In which I believe I was meant to continue to aid hurting alliance. I believe this is the right thing for me to do. I am ready, I have intrest in doing so again.
I'm not trying to cause trouble and not meant to. So please forgive me and my outmost humble appologies. In a way I'm forced to do this and only option no offense. These are my thoughts. Even though My Home alliance and my 1st alliance is hurting. Even though, I consider my Alliance and Allegiance to AD (Unless I'm unable to change things in future) But my main goal is to help with balance, but not for my Alliance, no offense.
In conclusion My Motto will take place once anew. "I'm hated by majority, Enemy by most. A Hero for a Select few. All in the name for balance" Hopefully this time I will not be Hated. In next Campaign reset. I understand Enemy by many. But AD should be glad in a sense. A Willing AD Vetran, is interested and willing to Help AD again. But only for Balance, but not for Alliance. No offense With that being said please understand I not trying to cause trouble and totaly meant no offense. I feel I was forced to do it this way and as well my thoughts on the matter for. Next Vivec PS4 EU Campaign reset. I thought it's way better on here instead of giving AD warning originally in Zone. So please forgive me and understand was to do what I did.
I wish All 3 Alliances, even though my Holiday(s) never be great. But I wish all 3 alliances Happy Holiday's.
Official PSN message. 4-18-18 (Copy/Paste) Hey Justin. It is ok. You can be so much more without the *(left name out). For me you are always a legend. Look for a job you want. You always write like a bard or poet so maybe you should write a book"
It Was A Glorious 2+ years in Scourge PS4 EU, especially during both the 1st and 2nd Scourge. As well as my time in Haderus PS4 EU. What will my journey bring, during my time in Shor, We shall wait; for my journey has only begun.