O Mighty Dragon. I am unable to do fully still at this time still. . Scourge is still unbalanced. More or less... Most in Scourge on PS4 EU. Have known. I been playing all 3 alliances. Since Scourge has recently restart. But only because I am trying to find out where I truly belong. An alliance that I can actually call home. And be proud to serve.

Yes Blues was my old alliance. For long time. I wanted to see if I belong there once more. But what happened 3 days ago when I was trying out red once more. Let's say it's unhealthy to go back to blue after what I have done to someone. I kinda took away Emperorship. I did try make it up. Many times. But still unforgiven to someone in blue alliance. I am now considered dead to that person eyes. I tried playing blue again. Just not feel comfortable.

I been on AD for longer this year. I like them. But it's starting to feel uneasy. More or less. Most yellows are very hard core. Meaning. Most yellows. But not all. Don't trust reds in this campaign and even yellows with red alts. I have a red alt. I have a blue alt. Blue is fine. (Since blues hardly see bottom of the map. Only first 3 keeps at most.) But not red. With Zone chat. Spy this. Spy that. I am getting tired of this. No offense.

It unfair to most red alts. Especially in a campaign where everyone knows each other. Since Scourge PS4 EU is mostly dead for almost 2 years. Scourge has mostly always been red. (To some degree. We had few blue and yellow Emperors to be honest)

However 1 day past. On AD. I tried to defend this red. Who was playing on yellow. Said AD's (Nameless to protect Identities) was giving hard time to this red. This red speaks the truth. Of what he was doing. I was there. I was watching. I witnessed everything. But yet he got unfairly kicked. Calling him a spy. Just like the other reds. Who had yellow alts.

I kept trying to defend. I finally had enough. I ask if they want me to leave. Since I have a red alt. Plus they know I was a red the other day. Before I was a red I did warn them before hand that I will be trying out the reds. "They say no. I can stay. They trust me." But how is this fair to me staying and not the other reds of the past who has yellow alts?" To be honest it's not.

Plus to be fair. I really like this. Best part is. One AD asked " Why all of AD seems Sexy?" I replied saying "I'm not" (meaning other things) another AD replied " Your not AD" ( so very true. Least I feel same way.)

So. Which leaves me to you. O Mighty Dragon. To be fair. And very honest. I have not been fair to any and all of you EP for almost 2 years now in Scourge PS4 EU. I have been ignoring you all. Loads of times. It seems like I really hate you all. Since I keep switching back and fourth. To both DC and AD. Over and over is unfair and unjust.

Yes it's all true. I do feel bad to. Especially since Scourge PS4 EU has recently restarted and trying to figure out where I truly belong. Since Scourge PS4 EU is the only Campaign that I can actually play. Without having much must have valid internet connection error. I do lag. But not as bad. I do freeze. Not as often unlike other campaigns. I am stuck in Scourge. But I love Scourge also.

Hence why. I'm forced to mostly blue and yellow in same campaign and red. Mostly blue and yellow. Since there hurting alliance. But as Many seconds. Many hours. Many days. Many weeks. Many moons. Have passed. I just keep thinking about these reds. Even more so. Especially when I'm not playing for myself. But in honestly. Playing for those who are hurting. To some degree.

In a way it's hurting me also. In said campaign. I feel like I don't belong to AD and DC anymore. Due to some reasons above. On why I don't belong. I just want to be in an alliance. That I am loved. That I feel truly belong to. That I can actually can call that very alliance my home and be proud to serve.

I am going to be a little off topic. Since I am kinda a little depressed right now. Knowing that I can't join Mighty Dragon. Fully. Anytime soon. Unless if I have no other option and will be kinda forced to. However what would others think? Those who serve both AD and DC. It will seem I be playing on winning side. To most.
I love PvP. So much so. I will continue to do so. But yet. What would others think about me?...

I want to share a tale. A tale about teabags. A tale I do not endorse. Nor do I support. Even though it is virtual. A tale that teabags don't bother me. Even though it may seem odd to most. But to me it does not. Plus. Weird it may seem. I once teabagged a bridge before. But never have I teabagged others and nor will I. However this tale is true and very accurate. To best of my knowledge.

True. But Odd Tale. Of A True Bridge Tea bagger Patriot.

There once was a was a yellow. Whom used to teabagged a bridge. Due to roll dodge off bridge and got slaughtered by the good fishes below. "I come to thee o false bridge of mine! You who may have fooled me once! But no more I dare say! O false bridge of mine. I come to thee and here alas I am. O false bridge of mine. I just teabagged you. Hows that?!

What's that you dare say? O false bridge of mine. O never mine. I dubbed thee. O false bridge of mine, false. Untrustworthy. I hope that someday. That others will stop by. On you. To remember that glorious day. When that poor, poor fool. Who took revenge on that false bridge of theirs. Whom he teabagged for an unusual revenge! All hail the Bridge Teabagger Patriot! O never mind. I bid you a good day. False bridge of mine!"

Thus ends the tale of a true and real. Official bridge tea bagger Patriot.

I feel better. It is so true Mighty Dragon. I really feel belong to thee. Even more so. In honestly. You reds make me laugh, makes me feel one of a kind. Especially in said campaign. I don't get mad, nor do I hate you all. Or anyone in any alliance. For the matter.

However it is true I mostly ignored all of you. For 1+ years in Scourge PS4 EU. I have played on your guys team for only 1 week and 1 day. With that 1 day being recently this week. (I keep track) What I noticed. This week. Is that some of you actually like me. No matter what I did. No matter what alliance I went on.

One red I know. Said I'm a super star. Via PvP Zone chat. While another red replied back "Whatever you say" Another Red said I was a Traitor. In PvP zome chat. Which I honestly agree. I am a Traitor to all 3 alliances. I got nothing to hide. Some EP want may to stay in there alliance. I kept refusing. But I am afraid I don't have any choice anymore.

What would others say about me? How is this fair? I do not understand anymore and I really want to find a alliance that I am proud to serve and call home. Instead of jumping back and fourth. Over and over again. Some of you are probably tired of these forums threads I make. However I have no choice and need help. Why do I want to really join Mighty Dragon in Scourge. In the first place?

1. I believe I have mistreated Mighty Dragon. By ignoring EP throughout my Scourge history. I keep going back to ad and dc off and on.

2. Most of my friends serve on red in Scourge

3. I truly believe and feel. EP will help me get out of my comfort zone. Let me start talking and don't worry of what others think. (Was very surprised how much alive the EP Zone and voice chat is. Unlike ad and dc. This could be very good for me. Especially not be afraid of people and there beliefs. I am still battling my shyness also.)

4. Those EP Alliance Mounts look so cool. I am very in awe. Especially when getting chased by said alliance mounts in Scourge lol.

5. For the Pact. Now this got me wondering. Am I actually truly a red. In secret all along? Got me thinking when I read that in zone chat. I wish I love my alliance's that I serve. Like that red and others. But I don't feel at home in AD and DC

6. I have always played for balance. Is it not EP's turn? Even though there better at what there doing?

Sadly. Again with the balance issues in Scourge. Am I a horrible person. Or am I very confused to join EP. Yes others could replace me. However I make EP stronger by giving one more person. How is this fair? What would others think? These are the very concerns that I have. O Mighty Dragon in Scourge.

I fear others will hate me. On other alliances. If I do serve you Mighty Dragon. Sadly I don't think I have choice anymore. Since I am not happy. Since I am not playing for me but in honestly for best of Scourge. Of what I feel best. I know it's a game and others take it serious. However. It not feels the same anymore. On both DC and AD no offense. Sad to say.

So. In conclusion. What should I really do. Do I continue to help other hurting alliances. Even though I not feel happy. Or do I take on a new journey. Try out EP. As much as AD and DC. Be hated by others. But EP might be actually good in Scourge. To help me in future. To me be more social and other things.

I also wanted to add. It was so easy for me attacking both AD and DC. When I was on EP this week. I know it sounds mean and odd. However it will stop me from going back and fourth. To DC and AD. Especially from my other eso forum threads.

I was proud and glad to serve AD and DC in Scourge. But with all the events going around me in Scourge PS4 EU. I fear I have no choice anymore. I feel I should actually should go and join Mighty Dragon. Right now honestly. But the balance is stoping me.

How long will I stay in AD. Or in DC. I fear I do not know. I love Scourge. I love PvP. I will continue to do so. What would others think? Is EP. The Mighty Dragon. My true alliance after all in Scourge PS4 EU. But yet I am hiding In secrete. That I have been ignoring them for a very long time? Should I say for the Pact? In terms I really feel that EP is my home.

To those who comment on my last thread. Why Mighty Lion, Why Mighty Eagle. To those who say try out Mighty Dragon. "Why does Serjustin19 ignore thee Mighty Dragon?" "Are you sure Mighty Dragon has not called to you?" And so on. To all of those who posted in that thread I thank you all.

Now I am really need assistance. If I do join Red in Scourge PS4 EU. Do I make a wrong choice? Did I make right choice? Why?

Why am I so complicated person? Heck I even made an AD. In Scourge. Who's name is actually. "Sir Justy The Confused." Yes it actually my real character name of mine. It also because. I do not know where to serve anymore in Scourge.

In which alliance I should join. But with these events going in AD and DC to me. And orher reasons that listed. I feel I have no choice. I strongly believe I also belong to EP. Even more so. I am sorry if I offended anyone here. I don't meant to. Sorry if I did. However forums lets me express freely. I hope others will do the same.



From what you all can gather. Do I really belong to EP after all. Or am I am a poor fool who is lost? I will be reading the comments when I have the chance. It will also help me decide if I should join Mighty Dragon after all. No matter what? I will also ask my friends and others that I know in Scourge to. Thanks in advance all. Wish you all good day.