Coming back after a year...
kit_sune
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Hi,
I hope that this finds you all well.
I left ESO around September 2016 (I believe the pts for One Tamriel had just started). I had played the game for about a year and a half at that point—putting in close to 3000 hours in game. I left the game feeling like I had lost a bit of myself. Spending night after night pvp'ing, dedicating myself to grinding gear, and doing dungeons. I felt tired and a bit empty from the game, and I contemplated what I could've have been doing with myself for those 3000 hours. I hated the game that I dedicated so much too.
ESO was my first MMO experience and it was lovely after I made friends in game. It was a lot of fun until I started to care too much about things. I started to get frustrated with myself on many levels both socially and my lack of skill. My ego couldn't handle the fact that I was trash at many things. I got really depressed about that and the drama that started with people I know in game (add on top of that all my battles with mental illnesses)
I gave away most of my mats, gold, and items to people I knew would make better use of them. I then uninstalled and didn't want to look back.
I spent the next year learning much about myself, and growing as a human being. Having life kick me while I was down plenty of times. I began to learn how to not take myself to seriously and be more easier on myself. Had to learn some self love (and to be honest: I had to learn to not give a *** about stupid ***). A friend in game told me once that confidence is learning to not care about what others think as much. I kept those words and became more confident forming much of my growth over the year.
I grew into myself and I decided three weeks ago to check out ESO again. I reinstalled ESO (waited like 5 hours) and I logged back into a different game then I remembered. I was in Auridon, seeing D.C. And E.P. running around with A.D. I went to join a campaign and Blackwater Blade was no more, it was renamed to Kyne, and thus I jumped into Cyrodiil hoping to see anyone I remembered. I didn't until I spoke in zone (I was always a bit of a troll) and then someone replied "OMG IS THAT FOX?!?" and there after people started to whisper me if I was back and I replied with a sincere "Yes". A friend (the same one who talked to me about confidence) told me about all the changes. I found out my Nightblade who was hitting 30k dps in the past now is trash cause TBS wasn't as useful cause of a certain nerf. RIP Thief and Shadow 2014-2017.
I had to relearn much of the game (rotations and such) but I was willing to. The game felt fresh, it didn't feel like the same ESO I hated. I can't tell you if it's my perspective or the game changes but I believe it's both. I learned to balance myself with this game, and just accept the fact that I'm trash.
Today I do my first progression run with a guild I'm in hoping that once my nightblade is geared I'll no longer be hitting 28k dps but be in the mid 30's. As buggy as the game still is and all the *** that comes with it—I'm happy to be back.
If you made it through that: may you be blessed by the magical doggo
I hope that this finds you all well.
I left ESO around September 2016 (I believe the pts for One Tamriel had just started). I had played the game for about a year and a half at that point—putting in close to 3000 hours in game. I left the game feeling like I had lost a bit of myself. Spending night after night pvp'ing, dedicating myself to grinding gear, and doing dungeons. I felt tired and a bit empty from the game, and I contemplated what I could've have been doing with myself for those 3000 hours. I hated the game that I dedicated so much too.
ESO was my first MMO experience and it was lovely after I made friends in game. It was a lot of fun until I started to care too much about things. I started to get frustrated with myself on many levels both socially and my lack of skill. My ego couldn't handle the fact that I was trash at many things. I got really depressed about that and the drama that started with people I know in game (add on top of that all my battles with mental illnesses)
I gave away most of my mats, gold, and items to people I knew would make better use of them. I then uninstalled and didn't want to look back.
I spent the next year learning much about myself, and growing as a human being. Having life kick me while I was down plenty of times. I began to learn how to not take myself to seriously and be more easier on myself. Had to learn some self love (and to be honest: I had to learn to not give a *** about stupid ***). A friend in game told me once that confidence is learning to not care about what others think as much. I kept those words and became more confident forming much of my growth over the year.
I grew into myself and I decided three weeks ago to check out ESO again. I reinstalled ESO (waited like 5 hours) and I logged back into a different game then I remembered. I was in Auridon, seeing D.C. And E.P. running around with A.D. I went to join a campaign and Blackwater Blade was no more, it was renamed to Kyne, and thus I jumped into Cyrodiil hoping to see anyone I remembered. I didn't until I spoke in zone (I was always a bit of a troll) and then someone replied "OMG IS THAT FOX?!?" and there after people started to whisper me if I was back and I replied with a sincere "Yes". A friend (the same one who talked to me about confidence) told me about all the changes. I found out my Nightblade who was hitting 30k dps in the past now is trash cause TBS wasn't as useful cause of a certain nerf. RIP Thief and Shadow 2014-2017.
I had to relearn much of the game (rotations and such) but I was willing to. The game felt fresh, it didn't feel like the same ESO I hated. I can't tell you if it's my perspective or the game changes but I believe it's both. I learned to balance myself with this game, and just accept the fact that I'm trash.
Today I do my first progression run with a guild I'm in hoping that once my nightblade is geared I'll no longer be hitting 28k dps but be in the mid 30's. As buggy as the game still is and all the *** that comes with it—I'm happy to be back.
If you made it through that: may you be blessed by the magical doggo
Everyone's Favorite Fox
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SBC✭✭✭✭Ones mindset changes everything. I'm glad you had some time to step back and figure things out with a fresh perspective. It will likely help with many things aside from ESO.2 -
rotaugen454✭✭✭✭✭
✭✭✭✭✭I've played for over three years and have about the same number of total hours. Like any other MMO, you'll run into great people and horrible people. Ignore the bad and befriend the good."Get off my lawn!"2 -
geonsocal✭✭✭✭✭
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heck, half of being smart - is knowing what you're dumb at...PVP Campaigns Section: Playstation NA and EU (Gray Host) - This Must be the Place4 -
Resfeber✭✭✭Awesome to hear something nice on the forums today.
I've yet to really return to the game other than a few brief gameplays once in a while but you give me hope.
I hope that it keeps being everything you hope it is. Who you play with is so important. Taking the time to enjoy what you want out of the game is too. I've never had a truly terrible experience outside of some annoying respecs and discouragement on having to rebalance all my characters.
Keep having fun!Resfeber (n.): the restless race of the traveler's heart before the journey begins, when anxiety and anticipation are tangled together; a travel fever that can manifest as an illness.
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nimander99✭✭✭✭✭
✭✭Always remember, I only do about 9k DPS, so you got me smoked. There's a confidence booster for ya. Welcome back!
Oh, and, confidence and ego are two separate things, in your life journey please don't mistake ego for confidence.
Have fun! Its a game, play it if its fun, put it down if it isn't. People forget, at the end of the day, this is just a game and meant to be fun.
Again, wb, I hope you enjoy the game as much as I do... and don't take it seriously either, not worth it.I AM UPDATING MY PRIVACY POLICY
PAWS (Positively Against Wrip-off Stuff) - Say No to Crown Crates!
∽∽∽ 2 years of Elder Scrolls Online ∼∼∼
"Give us money" = Box sales & monthly sub fees,
"moar!" = £10 palomino horse,
"MOAR!" = Switch to B2P, launch cash shop,
"MOAR!!" = Charge for DLC that subs had already paid for,
"MOAR!!!" = Experience scrolls and riding lessons,
"MOARR!!!" = Vampire/werewolf bites,
"MOAARRR!!!" = CS exclusive motifs,
"MOOAARRR!!!" = Crown crates,
"MOOOAAARRR!!!" = 'Chapter's' bought separately from ESO+,
"MOOOOAAAARRRR!!!!" = ???
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Alexandrious✭✭✭Im honestly startin to regret comin back now...and paying for 6 months sub time.
Just so many bad things I found that was never fixed or improved upon.....so many....
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Qyrk✭✭✭✭✭
✭Welcome Back OP.
I feel that your experience should be an anecdote for anything in life, and for anyone. If you feel that something is not giving you pleasure or happiness, let it go, take a rest from it.
The game is enjoyable and I have been playing for 3 years straight, but I can see instances where it is a chore - and that's when I knew to not play for a few days/week to have a clearer perspective.
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